Weight Restored Doesn’t Mean Cured

I was 13 when I first developed an eating disorder. I went from being a bullied, thick girl with large boobs to underweight and celebrated. I was praised, I was encouraged and I was MISERABLE!
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But here’s the thing Anorexia and eating disorders don’t just go away. They aren’t just another fad diet to loose weight. It’s a disorder. I have to fight that voice inside my head every day. Just because I’m in recovery doesn’t mean it isn’t easy to fall into bad habits. *
I have been weight restored for eight years but that doesn’t mean I haven’t had the ups and downs of a roller coaster from hell. Weight restored doesn’t always mean that by some magic you are cured from an eating disorder. It doesn’t mean that you are in recovery. In the eight years I’ve been weight restored I’ve given into unhealthy patterns many times. But recovery is a different kind of journey that is lifelong for those who have had an eating disorder. *
So what have I learned you ask from my ups and downs of this recovery roller coaster? To fight like hell not to give into bad habits because life is worth it and I deserved to have a better relationship with food because it’s the most important relationship in my life. It is important to develop a better relationship with food because it nourishes me and keeps me alive and I deserve to be alive 😊
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