There are many reasons why some gravitate towards an eating disorder. For me it was control. I often find that whenever I’m battling the my eating disorder the most it is because I’ve lost control over something in my life and I’m frantically grasping for threads of control and take it out on my body instead. But the body is resilient and I have fought through much in my life. Now, that I am older I have realized I don’t have to burry all the pain anymore. I have my friends and family to talk to and it helps so that I don’t take so much out on my body anymore.